Accept The Fact

Time flies, human grows, things change...
All the time, we could not accept the fact that thing has changed..
Same goes to parents. They will forever treat you as their little girl and little boy.

They expect you to do things they wanted you to;
but they have forgotten that you have grown up..
They think that you will forever listen to their orders;
but they have forgotten that you have your right to say..
They think that you will forever stay in their arms;
but they have forgotten that you will have your own life someday..
They want you to be the same as the day they got you;
but they have forgotten that you are not the same as they knew you..

A little respect

'Mr Frown' and 'Mr Furious' have been following me since I'm back.
I miss the 'Mr Gentle' and 'Mr Smile' who used to follow me when I was freely wandering in my fairy tale land - London.

I just need a little respect from you all.
Respect!!! Is the only thing I want. Stop shouting at me!! Please talk gently, it doesn't make any difference if you shout. However, it might be better to talk in a gentle way because it will not break my heart!! I'm sick of this. Am I making the right choice to come home??

I'm Back!!!!!!!

Sorry for the delays... The internet in Malaysia is terrible!!
I did not understand why I have to pay so much for the internet but getting any better services!!
Ok. Forget about it..
I'm Back on the 5th but went to China for business trip on 9th and back again to Malaysia on 15th..
So far, I have met few friends and have little gathering session..

First was meeting KarJun and Sinzi.... yam cha at Pappa Rich Kuchai Lama..

The second gathering was having dinner with SiewWen at Purple Cane in Gardens..

I hope there will be more gathering sessions in the coming weeks......!!! =D

Last moment in London

I still remember 2 years back, I did the same thing..
Carrying my heavy bags to the airport... For a 'long trip'..
And now, I am carrying my heavy bags to the airport.. I'm coming home...
I thought of a phrase.. 学成归来.. After years of 修炼..
Now, I'm coming back home..

Bye London... Bye to all my dear friends...
PeiLi, thanks for accommodating me in your house these few days.. And I'm very happy to have a friend like you.. YOU ROCKS!! =D

Besides, just a few days back.. Meeting a primary friend..
10 years ago, we hang out together everyday..
For the past 10 years I have been finding the lost contacts..
And, I found you.. Happy meeting you in London..
This will be the best memory we will have for the next 10 years.. haha..
Thanks for bringing me to the badminton session which made my body ache..!!
Hey you sexy, take care!! I will be missing you.. Come back to Malaysia for holiday someday..
We can have big gathering when you are back!! =)

A friend who got a same surname as mine.. Even the spelling is the same.... Low VS Low!! =)

Specially dedicate to mummy!!!

Mummy please listen to this..
You will like it!!
你一定好钟意！！hahaha...

拚了!!

谢谢我的supervisor帮我一粒字一粒字慢慢改！辛苦你啦！
我会拚了！！
等我。。明天就会改好给你！！

今天有一句名言好经典，让我充满力量！！分享一下：
“你累了吗？累就对了，因为舒服是给死人的！！”
哈~~

Malaysia Night Market Event..

Today went out whole day with Fel, PM and HB, after meeting my supervisor and having a 'not so good' feedback..
I'm depressed!! OK!! I need to go shopping...
So, I decided to go buy souvenirs and 顺便 go shopping Primark for the last time before I leave (hope I can still 'lap' 货 again before I leave)..
Then, only meet Fel, PM and HB at Trafalgar Square for the Malaysia Night Market event...
Sadly, there isn't many thing to see there..
All food stall with high price and low in quantity.. One little bowl laksa is 3pounds..
I eat at Pasar Malam can eat 5 bowls already... XD
We walked around for less than half an hour, then decided to go eat!!
Sushi GaGa!! but no more 50% discount.. sigh..

Nevermind, we still go for it..
While counting the bills, I could barely hear someone calling 'Ah YEE!!'
I did not respond because this name has not been called since two years ago..
haha... SORRY POH BOON...!! and I realised, that was Poh Boon!! hahaha..
We met Poh Boon and gang at the same restaurant coincidently...
Long time did not see her.. still the same smiling face =)

BUT, too bad.. I did not take any pictures today....
hahaha...No mood for pictures today..
Only shopping shopping shopping!!
*Hope I can get everything done before I leave... Praying hard.. Finger crossed*

中秋节快乐...

今年的中秋节怎么特别的想念和寂寞？？
我也忘了去年的中秋，我是怎么过的了。。
今天的我，也总算尝试了在异乡孤独的过中秋啦~~

我亲爱的家人，朋友们。。
愿你们今晚玩得开心点啦。。
我这里现在还是太阳高高照咧。。月亮在你们那里啦。。
它今晚就会来陪我了。。 =)

GodFinger - My Finger!!

Recently, I am addicted to another game after getting bored with the 'cookies dozer'..

This, new application... 'GodFinger'...

In this game.. Your are the 'God'... You build your own nation.. You control the world!! =D

Look at my followers... Happily drinking water from the fountain...

They are relaxing after working for me!! 

Oh... Someone feel like fishing......

You need a pond??

Ok, no problem.. *Mali Mali Hom!!!~~~~*

Here you go.....!! XD

See... She is now happily fishing beside the pond... haha

I am so addicted to this game... 

Loving my Iphone so much........ =)

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I have done my draft... for the second time.. and have sent to my supervisor..
She has made an appointment and asked me to meet her on friday...
Hope she will not ask me to make too much changes this time...
Next week is the deadline... Please say OK and let me submit it...
*finger crossed*

Smile...

挥霍了昨天。。但昨天并没有浪费。。
去了‘花小姐’ 的家因为开斋节。。
见了很多很久很久没见的朋友们。。
才发现我闭关了很久。。因为要‘练功’啊！！！
但，真的很开心见到大家。。 =)

这是昨晚从‘花家’回来拍的。。
第一张用‘哀凤’自拍的照片。。。

今天，心情有点闷。。。

想搞搞自己的心情。。决定我长长的‘阴’(fringe) 给剪了！！！

哈哈。。 好喜欢短短的头发。。舒服多了！！

再见了‘阴阴’，我们几个月后再见吧！！ =)

Surprise IPhone 4!!

I was wondering whether the Iphone I ordered 3 weeks ago will arrived on time..
I was chatting with one of my friends regarding it..
And the next minute, door bell rang.....
*Ding Dong~~*
Postman: Please sign. Here is your parcel.
Me: Thank you.
Here is the parcel.........................

I was excited about it... Wonder whether it is my Iphone......

I opened... and................

Ta~~ Da~~~~~

Here is my baby!! hahaha

See, how handsome is my baby.... Leng Zai!!!! 

Baby... You made my day... My mood can be positively increase to EXTREMELY HAPPY...

Because you have solved my worried.. I was worried about whether you will reach on time before I leave... Now, haha.... No worries.. You are going home together with me!! Yeah~~~~~

P/S: LamBi.... You will have my Samsung when I am back =) I will give you a 2 GB memory card also.. =D

Say No to Procrastination

I am not trying to praise myself, but look at the stacks of  papers here..
These are my hard work!! I am seriously trying my best..
I tried.. I tried to focus and concentrate but I just could not stand it..
Words and words are killing me softly..
I am seriously digging my brain to vomit those so called 'professional terms and views'..
I am thinking so hard, it doesn't mean that I did not learn anything for the past few years..
It is just... too hard.. too hard for me....
As a second lower class student, what do you expect?
For the past 20 years of my life, I did not get flying colour in anything!!
I mean ANYTHING!! I got NOTHING!! Nothing that I am doing well..
I am not an expert in anything.. I feel so ashame for myself, and my family..
Sorry for disappointing you all.. Daddy, Mummy.. I tried my best... I had... and I tried...

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It was so silent every night.. And it is difficult for me to fall asleep when it is too silent..
I know it is weird but, I used to sleep with radio on...
I need some noise to accompany me to sleep..
A long lonely night.. This is the game I used to play every night on bed..
It helps me to get tired... But normally it takes hours to make me tired..
And, I am used to be tired only 3 A.M. in the morning..
I think, I really need someone to tell me bedtime story every night....
Honestly, I did not have this kind of childhood...
With bedtime story.. I don't even know what is bedtime story before I am an adult..
I used to think it was so stupid to listen to story when you are getting on bed..
I felt it was disturbing..
But, now.... I need it badly... ='(

陪伴。。

Thanks to all these colourful little smarties accompany me for my work... =)

Today's dinner...
Egg with potatoes curry... It took me about 20minutes to prepare this meal..
But worth it.. I'm happy with tonight's dinner =)

Tonight's Dinner

I did not know since when I fell in love with Pita Bread......
Maybe it was because the PiriPiri shop who sell 'Grill Chicken Breast with Pita Bread'....
Ahhhh~~~ You know how tasty it is when you hear the name!!
But I could not afford to spend that 3.99pounds everyday to have that..... =(
I decided to make it myself.. Although the chicken was not grill.....
But still, it taste good to me.... =)

Ingredients:
1 Pita Bread (Baked, Grill for 2 - 3 minutes)
1 Chicken Breast (Cooked, Baked, Grilled)
Some lettuces and tomatoes (chopped, sliced)
*Optional: Salad dressings (Thousand Island, Mayonnaise, Ketchup)
Ready in 10 minutes!!

怀旧...

我是喜欢怀旧的人..
一首经典的歌可以重复听一整天...
一碟好吃的炒饭可以重复吃一星期...

我对人也一样...
不适应陌生... 因为我喜欢熟悉感...
对着一个喜欢的人, 就算对一生也无所谓..

对喜欢的事....
就算天天都在做, 都不会觉得厌倦...
天天到同一个地方怀念你, 也不算麻烦..

对着充满幻想的自己....
就算对着天空, 把自己的脑袋放空一整天,
也是一种享受....

因为, 我不喜欢改变...
因为, 我习惯了...
因为, 我总是喜欢回忆....
因为, 我拥有的回忆是甜蜜的..

时间....

人生有种种抉择。。
你有权力参与，也有权力放弃。。
选择了参与，就预料到付出的会比想象中更多。。
如果你选择了放弃，你就会被淘汰。。被遗忘。。

成长的过程中，有许多陪我们度过的人。。
一些深爱着我们的人，一些我们深爱的人；
一些被我们遗忘的人，一些忘记我们的人；
一些背叛了我们的人，一些我们背叛的人；
一些曾伤害我们的人，一些我们伤害的人。。
他们一直都在我们身边，陪着我们长大。。
因为他们，我们变得更坚强。。

即使有一天，我们在街上碰面；
都已是最熟悉的陌生人了。。
我身边的他，已不是当年的他。。
他身边的他，也不是当年的我。。

时间，它在戏弄人生。。
人生也因为时间而变得更有意义。。
回忆是时间给我们最好的礼物。。
因为只有时间，才有资格给我们一份美好的回忆。。
时间啊。。。 谢谢你。。。

Random... LIFE..

It has been a long time since last post.. 
Two months ago?? 

I have totally forgot about this blog..
When I was updating it everyday for the last few years..
Why isn't anything for me to post about in this blog now?
Nothing really happening to me recently?

Yes, honestly..
My life and routine for these two months is exactly the same for everyday..
Wake up in the morning.. Looking at the ceiling..
Spending hours on bed awake....
Rewinding what was the dream I dreamt last night..
Hence, I have good memory in every dreams I had.. No joke...

After revising the dream, that's the time for me to prepare my breakfast..
I used to have a surprisingly wonderful breakfast every morning..
with ham, toast, egg or some fruits or salads randomly...
But, time after time...
My breakfast has become a slice of toast with an egg and a cup of coffee..
Breakfast used to be my happiest meal of the day..
But it has become a lonely meal of all...

I will spend a whole day, more than 12 hours in front of my laptop...
I wonder what I did in these 12 hours..
Check mails, Facebook...
and start reading journals and continue my progress of dissertation..
But, it wouldn't last long.. Why I wonder?
I will start feeling uncomfortable and need a shower..
Then, I will spend time making cups of coffees and teas in between...
I will allowed my mind to wander around to think of something else......

By the time, the sky was dusk...
And, it's time to prepare for dinner....
I used to enjoy cooking dinner all by myself..
I enjoy the process of cooking.. And the outcome and feedback from others..
It boosts up my confidence.. And I love that feeling..
But, time after time... I started to avoid kitchen.....
I started to spend lesser and lesser time in the kitchen..
My happiness and smiles were lost in the kitchen....

And I realised that, I need to share my life with someone...
Someone who understands me...
Who willing to share my life...
Who be there for me..
Who feel the happiness I have while cooking in the kitchen..
Who loves to try every dish I made..
Who gives me a big smile everytime I needs it..
Who willing to wipe away my tears everytime I cry...
Who willing to share silly jokes and gives me laughter...
Who will care about ME and my FEELINGS....
Who understand what makes me HAPPY and what makes me CRY..

What is the purpose of living?
For myself?
How do I live for myself when I don't even know why am I suppose to live?
I don't live to the WEALTH.... And I don't live for the HEALTH..
I have nothing since I was born..
and I shouldn't bringing anything with me when I am gone..
So, what is the meaning of life?
When you aren't getting anything in the end of your life??!!

Graduation Jul 2010

Queuing for registration....

Wearing robes!!

In the ceremony hall...

Opening ceremony..

Did you see me?? The second one!!! The shortest one in the queue!! XD

That is me!!! =D

Pictures time!!!

Talking to lecturers.... =D

Me and Dr. Nicky Payne & Dr. Camille Alexis-Garsee..

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